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There are times in which you just wanna let it all out, u know?

times in which all the frustrations and anger seems on the verge to explode

times in which you felt lost and forgetting your next step

It is in such moment that you just wanna let it all out,

when in that second your conscience pops out and pulling you back....


Life would be better if there exists only one emotion at a time...

無線網路帶來的無限可能

無線網路的世界非常奇妙，不少廣告紛紛以＂只要擁有ｘｘｘ，世界跟你走＂等標語來凸顯無線網路在產品上的優勢。

遙想距離現今十年前，PC及Ｍicrosoft剛問世時，所謂的網際網路雖以出現，但電腦的運用多數仍然還是主要運用在資料處理及數字運算上。

記得第一次接觸到網路是國中的時候，當時父母買了家裡第一台的PC給我們使用，忘了最初網路是如何架上去的，總之，扮演著家庭消費者的我們就這樣興奮地看著這麼一台大約不到13吋的CRT，搭配應該有兩公斤的主機，揭開了我們的科技生活。

時光飛梭，才不過短短十年的時間，社會就從「讀萬卷書不如行萬里路」突然變成「不出門便能知天下事」的生活型態。尤其Wifly所帶來的便利，真的讓人無論到何處隨時都能掌握到最新的訊息。

生活型態在這十年所達到的轉變，真的讓你不得不佩服人類驚人的創造力。

「掌握天下事」已在這個階段完成，那麼接下來呢？

Sleeve

I spot this intriguing habit that Mr. Bean does.

I dont normally see people place their money inside their tie.

Keeping money inside one's clothe were a common scene in the early Chinese history.

We used to hid our expensive belonging just inside our sleeve.

I always wonder how do they keep the things inside without felling out from their sleeve.

This is my first Blog

2009.4.27

There will be always obstacles popping from nowhere to stop one from moving on......

　
　

...

Have I been asking too much of you?

It was obvious for the akward situation we both stood in

Unexpected things

These past two months of working days in the school had been a fast one. Its hard to believe that I have discharged from the army for already five months from now. Time flies and we could never be able to catch up. 

However, several unexpected things still manage to caught up during these short period. I felt surprised yet not shocked by these news, either good or bad. It may seem strange, but I doubt it might be that inner living attitude of my that tells me to look upon things the easy way. For instance,  the impolite roommate who would litter his cigartte ashes in my toilet every now and then, and didnt stop even though I wrote a notice saying "this is for a public toilet, Keep clean after usage".  Other "unexpected" things like ....

A New Variety Session

This Monday I had a very extrodinary experience in the YWCA Toastmasters. 

For those who has been regular guests or members of our club might be familiar with David Yu from Lung-Tan Club. He is a devoted English teacher as well as a very talented guitar player, who would play a number of classics from time to time during the Variety Session. Even though he does not belong to LHU TM, but such splendid musics had really became a feature of our club. 

However, it was the experience on Monday which had opened my eyes once again.

Guess what the people in YWCA have? 

Tai-Ji Master (太極師傅)

It grabbed my attention when I hear this middle-aged man says he is going to teach Tai-Ji. It is akward, it is embrassing, but it is also very FRESHING!  The whole programme went wonderfuly  smooth varies non-stopping laughter from the members. This totally had change my impression on the definition of Variety Sessions.  

Maybe that is what all about....

Variety could be also defined as 綜藝, which in English meant Mixed Arts. 

It may be difficult to escape from the pattern of TM in the beginning, but we should not really limit ourselves for creating better results. 

After all, foster self-confidence is the main thing. 

  

inner pain

Its hard to express that inner pain of me,

Such feelings I just cannot put in words,

But babe, I do know you gave the very most of it,

Forgive me of what I am,

This is somehow just not what I need,

There are times which I loose track of myself,

Any hard words is just not what I meant

Those inner pain of mine, those complicated places I have been,

are all  tearing me apart, 

This is my quiet sorrow

The Habit of Stop Giving Up

"Stop giving up" is a habit. 

It has been never an ordinary line which occasionally appears in any heart-growing films. What you saw from inspiring films like"Cape No.7" or "October Sky" is heart-touching, but will not get you on the road of success in the next moment you walked out of the cinema. In spite of winning the top prize in the lottery, which the possiblity is even lesser than having yourself got struck by lightning, this is not success but "luckiness". 

"Rome does not built in a day"

A survey by 天下 magazine had done interviewing several celerbrities, as to understand their secret behing every successes. The result all lead to one thing- good habits. 

     

 

Experience tells me the importance of avoiding bad thoughts whenever you are in a moment of tiredness. "避免在疲倦的時候產生負面的想法"

Lastly, a quote from Sister Act2 修女也瘋狂2 when the choir of Sistine Chapel felt frustrated after recognizing pre-year's winner had sang the same song whic they prepared.....

"If you wanna be somebody, you better wake up and stay attention"

                                                                                               

Pay Attention and Stop Giving Up!!

 

蜻蜓點水的奇幻旅程

"The Curious Case of Benjamin Button 班傑明的奇幻旅程" 

一個出生就患者奇怪的疾病，外表跟身體像極了六七十歲的老年人，卻隨著年紀的增長，越變越年輕．

看完這部片很難不能讓人聯想到1994年Tom Hanks的"Forrest Gump 阿甘正傳"．

故事的主角同樣在先天條件下都具有異於常人的特徵或疾病，而這些也同樣地帶領著他們面對人生的各種奇蹟．但相較之下，’Benjamin’對於人生的刻劃及體驗我覺得卻沒有’Forrest’來得更深得人心．最大的差異就在於前者在愛情的際遇上比起後者似乎還要來得美滿．而且Benjamin與Daisy彼此的人生與Forrest跟Jenny的也要來得有所展獲．

　我常覺得快樂是需要靠悲傷來襯托彼此才符合人性．儘管Forrest能夠靠著自己與生具來的強壯雙腿加上一點點運氣，讓他順利的從進入明星大學，後來倖免於戰爭中，接著還莫名其妙的打乒乓球進入國家代表隊，後來又幸運的買了艘捕蝦船賺了大錢．在人生的旅程上雖然是越來越平順．但致使至終，臉上從沒表現出一絲絲地喜悅．好吧，能夠重新將丹中尉帶出頹廢的人生的確讓他非常的開心，但別忘了．．．他的那艘捕蝦船叫做Jenny，而且雖然有錢後船是一艘接著一艘的購買，但每當夜深人靜時．．．．．．

．．．'I always thought of Jenny'．

　一句話似乎道出了整部片的精神，

    但我非常合理的懷疑Forrest究竟有沒有為自己宛如奇蹟般的人生經歷感到任何一點成就或僥倖呢? 畢竟他是有智能障礙的，所以才會在人家的雙腿都被炸斷的時候還白目到問人家要不要吃冰淇淋，又或者當著全國觀眾的面前露屁股給總統看．

好了．．似乎離題了．．

有關於Benjamin的這部片呢...的確是稍嫌刻骨銘心．．．

其實這多少也有點要歸咎於台灣的片商，明明人家原名打著是 The Curious "Incidents" of Benjamin Button.....所謂的Incident 就硬是要把他翻成 "旅程"．

問題是整部片當中他不是就在那艘船上嗎？明信片寫了一大堆但電影卻一點也沒演到．．只知道在巴黎跟別人的老婆發生感情．．結果最後還莫名其妙的被提分手．

題外話，那位女士，Tilda Swinton　正是在電影 Constantine 驅魔神探:康斯坦丁　裡演加百列哪為gay gay的天使. 標準的英國貴族高傲的外表，的確挺適合演Elizabeth這個角色．

也許是Brad Pitt給我感覺太沉穩了，不論是過去Ocean三部曲，早期的Meet Joe Black，角色性格都差不多．在Curious這部片裡飾演的是一位從出生就是衰老外表的小孩子，成長過程裡也真的像老頭子一樣整天躺在輪椅中。儘管角色耐人尋味，但故事大部分卻環繞在Ben跟Elizabeth的感情戲中。並未好好把罕見的疾病當作特色，個人覺得這點很可惜。

如果導演能夠多把重點發揮在Ben 離家環遊世界的際遇中，那麼Brad Pit或許t就不會給觀眾那種蜻蜓點水，過水無痕的表面印象吧。

2009.02.09

Its not easy to believe in things that are somehow supernaturual or unexplained. However, incidents have make me to start understand that maybe fate has it own plans. 

I got discharged from the army three months ago and had got a temporary job fortunately back at my old college. To be honest, going back to LHU was the last thought appeared in my mind. I had a plenty of sweet memories during my particpation in student association but not the teachers. I never got deeply involved in the faculty group. My performances in the school made me a good name among the students and teachers, however I was not very passionate about expanding my interpersonal relationships. I worked with many people but most of them turns out to be a nodding acquaintance. Therefore, it would be pretty akward if we bumped into each other in the school. 

But somehow fate has its own games to play....

While I was attending school's anniversary last year, I got to know one of our department's teacher, Julia, who happens to be the cheif of extra curricular activity. Having known my condition, she invited me back to her department to work as an adminitrative assistant and thus then starts with a series of "amusing" coincideneces.

First, I met an old teammate which we used to work with in club activities, which I only realized that he is also one of the cadidates for the same job. Its been such a long time since our last conversation and it certainly was a nice encounter. The second experience  happenss during the school's New Year Banquet I attended just a week ago. The whole feast was being organized very nicely but there was not enough seats in the beginning. Therefore, me and Julia needs to seek around for empty spaces to fill in. And like I mentioned above, I never got into any deep relations with the Department's facultys so it was the biggest embrassing occassion I would try to avoid.

  

however, fate has its own game to play.......

there was empty seats at the DAFL's table.........

Anyway, thats how I fall into this "terrible" coincidence....again.. However, it did took sometime before the ice starts to break. It was when Robert arrives that I gradually began to feel back on the feet. I was surpised that the banquet went quite well later in the whole process. In the end I felt kind of glad for sitting with our teachers.  

evidence has proved that it really can make some changes once you took your step....

 

 

2009.02.06 Relaxation

I enjoy spending my leisure in a quite afternoon,  drawing illurstrations; a cup of hot japanese tea on the table, with Chopin or Yo Yo Ma as the background.  It is during these time of the day I'd feel a sense of relaxation. 

2009.02.05 Re-Thought

Back in college, I always try to avoid circumstances like being alone with the people that are not familir with, or never cut into any conversation between three or more people. I am not really a talkative guy who never lack of interesting topics in his mind.  Frankly, I consider myself as a slow person to get along with. Though such occasions typically puts me and the opponent into an akward atmosphere. 

Of course, I would like to make some changes, as to make myself a better person. But though, this is a society flood with all kinds of people. There should'nt be anybody who is definate to tell you that having a certain character plays the key to success, not your boss nor your parent has the previlage to do that.  

You Change When You Feel Like to Change.

 

Paris Je T'aime 巴黎我愛妳

"Paris Je t'aime 巴黎,我愛你" is a collective film made by a bunch of world-known directors and actors including Natalie Portman, Juilet Binoche etc.It's no surprising that this is another typical story praising about the beauty of the city. 

But besides all the good things, theres also quite some bad things to be seen. for example there's a clip tells of an American tourist who accidentally made a visual contact with a kissing lover. This instantly provokes the boyfriend and in the end gave the American kick in the ass. Other stories like there's an old couple which the husband is having an affair and planning to get a divorce with his wife, and in the end breaks up with her until realizing that the wife got a fatal disease. 

I think the definition of beauty comes in many ways. The shape of a outstanding model may be figure of perfection; but is the appearance of a abused prostitute also shares the same beauty? I think the answer is "yes". No matter good or bad, it all reveals the true beauty of Paris. 

I wonder when do we get to make a film about the story of Taipei. 


Paris maybe a place of history, of beauty, of modern but it was also built upon a past of corruption and obscenity. All great cities have walked difficult steps until reaching maturity. New York, London, Tokyo, Shanghai and etc. Taipei itself shares the same characteristics. We've been through political periods from colonization, the 228 incident, the martial law 戒嚴 to democracy. We have unique features like Taipei 101, Di-Hua street, the Shi-Lin night market, Tamshui, Jiou-Fen. We also have problems like bad traffics, disorganized streets and buildings, 
overabundant drug abuses. 

Taipei itself is a book of stories. 

I really do hope one day we could have our own , "Taipei, Je'taime 台北,我愛妳" 

2008.12.17

俗話說“Life is built up by a pack of Choices.”

永遠不知道在你吃一塊巧克力時，突然又會冒出另一塊。

 今天的我似乎驗證了這一切。話說前幾天我終於又接到了另一通面試的電話。這家位於內湖園區的一個距離MRT非常非常非常”遠的要命的公司”，名字我就不說了，因為在Google根本找不到該公司的網址，不禁令我懷疑員工人數真的有九百多人嗎?

 總而言之，人家跟我約的時間是10:30，我特地起了個大早，不到十點就到了距離最近的後山埤站，但當我走出捷運站時，完了！這麼跟Urmap完全不一樣，這裡是什麼鬼地方啊？我印象中的園區高樓大廈跑哪去了？怎麼一眼望去都是小巷子。眼看時間一分一秒地流逝，正在徘徊究竟要不要花錢找小黃求救時，終於痛下心決定依靠自己與身俱來的野外求生術。。。為什麼＂可能＂只有短短五分鐘的路程，我還要白白花七十塊的冤旺錢呢。。。。

還好我很幸運地終於在最後一刻到達了目的地並完成了面試，正當我陶醉在自己天生靈敏的方向感時，才發現原來這家公司就距離松山車站差不多十分鐘，而我感到非常驕傲的野外求生術竟然花了我將近半小時的路程。

 這是印證一

 整個面試的過程還算順利，除了那位年紀頗大，外表及講話極像我老爸的老闆，一直不停地逼問我的家庭狀況及工作經歷，一副企圖想把我弄哭的樣子。而我固裝鎮靜但結果卻有點像花拳繡腿的回應，在面試結束後真的一度讓我有點想直接就跳下成美橋。除了這些之外，工作內容感覺挺簡單的，跟過去在做美編時差不多，其他的過程感覺大家還挺聊得來的。

老爹（仿冒老爸的老闆）說最快禮拜五就可以給我答案。回覆的時間這麼快不知道將會是死刑的宣判還是天堂的福音。。。

 上帝呀！我雖然不是基督徒，但我對你絕對尊重

我也很常去教堂。。。。。（小學時候被逼著去的）

在路上遇見傳教士我也會避諱跟他聊天。。。（然後再假裝要趕火車趕他走）

 總之，正當我ㄧ邊為這份工作祈禱時，另一個福音突然出現。

先前非常想要工作的動畫公司通知我去面試。第一次對方有跟我在電話上進行個簡單的面試，過程似乎挺順利的，後來不知為何就沒下文。這次能夠死灰復燃，對我來說的確是個意外的驚喜，但卻也同時陷我於選擇工作的兩難。

這是印證二

 若老爹答應收留我，那我勢必要拒絕動畫公司的面試。失去了理想工作的機會。若我拒絕了老爹，投奔動畫公司，萬一面試也不過，那我最後豈不是變成兩頭空。當然最壞的結果就是兩家都不要我囉。。。。。。。。。

所以說呢，吃這塊巧克力也不對，吃那塊似乎也不通，不吃最後我就餓死了

 

        

Dan in Real Life

Dan in Real Life整個結構上可以說是個typical的Hollywood愛情喜劇.一個擁有三個女兒但中年喪妻的作家老爸 Dan Burns (Steve Carell) ,

在一個巧合下遇見了生命中的另一春,Marie (Juliette Binoche)本來是一場很美麗的邂逅卻事後發現原來Marie竟然是Dan的弟弟新交的女友.........  

當初會選擇這部片除了因為Steve Carell之外，其次當然就是我最愛的Juliette Binoche 也在裡面囉!! 一位是極富喜劇細胞的好萊屋笑匠,一位是頭手舉止都散發出高貴典雅的法國氣質女星．這樣的組合的確勾起了我很大的好奇心．

Dan是個報社的專欄作家，專門為人解決各式樣的疑難雜症,但在現實生活裡卻頻頻與自己的女兒起衝突. 因此當知道Marie竟然是弟弟的女友後,儘管心中充滿 著矛盾,但卻遲遲無法勇敢去追求.而這種情節剛好跟Dan的女兒, 

Cara有著強烈的相互對映.Cara是個正處於叛逆期的少女，有個認識不到三天就交往的男友． 兩人的關係一再被身為父親的Dan否定.Dan無法接受愛情是可以在短短幾天就形成的東西,卻同時無法承認自己跟Marie的關係就是如此. 

一直到Cara的男友離去時跟他說了一句話.  

Love is not a feeling, it's an ability 

雖然我並不是很認同,我寧可把它當成Love is NOT ONLY a feeling, 這樣感覺比較貼切. 愛僅可以是種感覺呢?如果不是種能力,是種動力,那麼愛究竟什麼時候才會被發現呢? 三角關係發生在自己家裡,其實那也挺不可思議的....

在外國人看來可能是場笑話,但若這樣的事情發生在台灣人的家庭裡,那一定又是另外一齣 台灣的什麼驚世媳婦系列的吧?!

龍困淺灘

一位當乒的同梯說我是"龍困淺灘"．

退伍快要一個月了，卻還是無業遊民一個，整天在家當宅男．每天的生活作息就是早上八點，有的時候十點，甚至十一點起來，依昨天連續劇看到幾點為準，起來後刷個牙，看看老媽有沒有準備早飯，沒有就自己下廚，煮個水餃什麼的，再來就是看個電視，一天最重要的一餐就這麼解決了．接著就是坐在電腦桌前，打開104，開始了一天的投遞大戰．

當然我也不是每天都無所事事，像那些新聞報導什麼二三十歲的年輕人不找工作，整天對著電腦玩線上遊戲，逃避現實生活．在Job Hunting 之餘，我會逛些插畫，設計類的網站，就這樣參考別人的東西，看久了腦中偶爾就會有些想法，然後作品就這樣出來了．

但究竟好不好呢？或著搬不搬得上檯面呢？也許很多人看了會覺得讚不絕口，但很多時候其實我自己也不是很清楚．常常我會懷疑自己究竟是不是真有創作的天份，那種對世界的敏感度？

如果真有的話，為什麼我現在還在這裡呢？還是真的如他人所說的懷才不遇嗎？

2008.11.16 衰神附身

車子莫名其妙被撬開了～妹妹放在車子的書包因此被偷了～
我的牙齒掉了～

我並不是個自怨自艾的人～很多時後對事情的發生也保持樂觀的去面對
但這兩天下來～真的是無法形容的倒楣～讓我不得不懷疑
我過去在當兵時的那個lucky charm 是否已經隨著我的退伍而消聲匿跡了呢？

昨天送完妹妹去看病後，接著就去王爺廟拜拜，希望自己能夠盡快找到合適的工作．所以啦～待我拜拜之後，因為難得開車載著妹妹出來玩，想說偶爾也該扮演一下好哥哥的形象，所以就決定帶著女友以及妹妹一起去海灘走走，觀賞一下美麗的夕陽．沒想到這才是一切楣運的開始．．．．．

話說我們到了海灘之後，便停在附近的停車場．我還記得當時妹妹還把皮包大搖大擺的放在車上，還被我說雖然裡面沒錢，但這樣恐怕也會引發人家犯罪的念頭吧．誰知～就這樣一語成真！
過了不久，回到車上才發現車門被撬，書包不見了！（#!@DD#@E#@E@#）

媽x! 真的很氣~!!沒事車子不偷，偷人家學生的書包有什麼用，難道小偷有戀童癖嗎?!
何況書包裡能放什麼? 不就書包跟文具嗎??你是有窮到要跟人家搶書包嗎?

這件事就算了~雖然我沒什麼損失，但畢竟帶他們來海邊我自己也有連帶的責任．心裡多少也會過意不去．．．

就在這件事的隔天~正當我享受著我的脆皮雞排時~~挖ㄌㄟ~牙齒竟然突然間就掉了?!
先前補的就這樣前功盡棄~~~~

喂喂喂~~~我不是才剛拜拜完嗎？怎麼衰神馬上附身了？！

2008.11.14 Photo Retouching

Date: 2008.11.14
Tools: Photoshop